tweak it

I can't think properly, there is a blockage and it needs some fixxing, or minor tweaking. What is the reason someone can become so happy at one moment, and turn sour the next. The unpredictable emotional unstability i'm going through hasnt helped much. all i have been doing for the past few days was spacing out. Purposely being unavailable not by choice, but because instantly i have the tendency to blow my brains out like a ticking timebomb. so unsettling and improper to say, but what is up with me lately? Felling unweary of myself, but theres just so much happy thought lying around somewhere.

Happy as i seem, but it still feels uncanny . why on earth would a happy child start building flames of intense!.It is like the sky is never blue, sometimes gloomy sometimes bright and shining, immaculately, things seeem near to perfect.I've lost hold of that perfect sky ....i'm gonna go paint a better sky today. and hopefully life today won't be as dull and i shall not look so pale.

I would have been flying that lil red kite somewhere high up there, it unexpectedly got tangled up .now i must go find it, and start back from where i began. you know...because a day does not end, it only starts back at the beginning through the acccomplishments of task and fulfilments of desires one has per day. so today all is about life, my mind, the alter ego , and my inner voice all coming together to play out on this sunny weather. Hopefully she finds a happy ending, to start again.:)